I'm No Longer in the First Flush of Youth

Today, without inspired by anyone, I believe that I should start to write. Actually I have already created blog once but it left unattended for a pretty long time since I was not good at writing at all. I deleted them all because when i reread, I tend to not like it. ;(

I always have a feeling that the shadow of the old age keeps tailing me everyday. I have to admit that I'm afraid of being old and lose all the capabilities that we acquired since young. Even lately, I just can feel that my memory has faded and not as spongy as last few years. For being too worried, I spilled this to my mom yesterday, she said that I might need a Gingko Biloba. I hope it could help. I'm in a hunger of knowledges and I have long realized that a person at my age have a lot in their minds compared to me. I have wasted lot of years and now I will work my ass off to gain many things in life. I envy Faraha for she attended the sewing class and now can sew dress herself. I envy Fairuz for being called as " The Most Intelligent Person in the Class", I envy Farah Kecik for can draw and paint many wonderful paintings while manage to stay awake till morning to finish works. Not to forget, Mak Nad who can sit 24/7 focusing on books during finals. (pardon some exagerations)

Therefore, I believe that I'm no longer in the first flush of youth and need to work hard to achive everything that people at my age could. (How impossible but I'll try.) ;)

To start, I want to have a blog of my own as a witness for my effort to change!

However, for some events and stories, I will not use the actual name and place because it might hurt hearts. Also, excuse my wrong usage of language, spelling and punctuations. I'll try hard to improve and correct me whenever I go wrong. Thanks in advance.